133.4 NOT GOOD ENOUGH!

AGE:20                                       
HT:5'4"                                        
HW:147                                       
LW:113                                        
CW:133.4
UGW:98

GW1:125
GW2:120
GW3:115
GW4:110
GW5:105
                                     



        Does anyone know where I can get a magic fairy to come wave her little wand and get me to my 98 over night?... Shit... Me either! I'm so impatient. I had a great fast day yesterday. I wasn't cranky like I usually get. In fact I felt clear minded and peaceful. I welcomed the hunger pains. I enjoyed it and felt so accomplished when I went to bed completely empty. But then today I feel like I went and blew that out the window. I had a grand total of 1184 cal. I feel SO GROSS. I didn't even purge today. I didn't really have the chance to. I can't bring myself to do it when my daughter is awake. I'm not sure why that is. Oh well fucking damage is done now. So starting tomorrow I'm going on a 3 day fast to give myself a kick in the ass that I desperately need at this point.
Wish me luck! :)